My elderly poodle, Allie drowned on Monday. She was basically deaf and very poor eye sight at her 19 years young. I was always paranoid she would drown. I told my family (husband and kids) to not even leave her outside for long. We have a gate around the pool but I have found times where it was left cracked and I feared she would get through by accident, wonder in and not be able to get out. My worst nightmare came true Monday. I came home from work and my husband told me she was gone. I screamed, what was he talking about. Where is she. He said she’s gone. I said what happened to her, did she drown. He said yes. And I lost it. I’m trying so hard to get over it. I’m so angry. Angry she was left out there for any period of time. Angry I wasn’t there with her when she passed. Just angry. And oh so sad. I can’t imagine her last moments of fear, panic and struggle. I’m heartbroken. I miss her. I obviously knew this day was coming with her age. But the way it happened is making it so much worse. Anyone been through something similar. my life was consumed by caring for her. Letting her out frequently, even in the night. Feeding her etc. Im lost. 19 years is such a long time and I feel like she was ripped from me unfairly. Any words of encouragement are appreciated.