Reese0317
I'm glad to have found this board, as I really could use some support from those who understand how close and special our animals are to us.

Here's what's been going on: About a month ago, my 14 year old cat Rugby started acting a bit strange, with a slight head tilt, missing what he tried to jump on, and missing his treats with his mouth. Took him to the vet right away, did full exam, blood work, urine, and feces, all normal. He was put on antibiotics for a week, in case of an inner ear infection, but his balance and head tilt got worse. Went back to the vet who referred us to a neurologist for a MRI, because if it was just vestibular disease it would've been resolving by now. The neurologist did an X-ray of his heart and chest before the procedure to reveal many pulmonary nodules in his right lung, therefore not able to do the procedure. After being transferred to the internist, they saw that his chest was filled with fluid, compressing his lung. They tapped his chest, removed 200mL of fluid and thankfully his lung reinflated. They tried to test the fluid for cancer
cells, but the results were inconclusive, and therefor they will not treat with chemo. Rugby is now started on prednisone in hopes that it will reduce the nodules in his lungs, decrease fluid production, and reduce the probable cancer in his brain. So far, he's doing as good as possible. Back home, purring away and loving on his whole family. He's still wobbly, but with hope that will improve with steroids.

I'm pretty torn, wishing that we could have a definite diagnosis so we could treat him for a more comfortable longer life with chemo, but knowing that the invasive biopsy to find this out isn't worth putting him through all that. Plus eventually the chemo would stop working, and we'd be back to this point anyways with a lot more that he would've gone through. I just hope the steroids do good for my sweet baby, but I think the feeling boils down to feeling helpless, wishing there was more I could do, wishing he'd get better, wishing he'd live forever...

I'm just so sad and getting more depressed every day knowing that my time with my little Bug is running out. I just want to do the best we can for him to be comfortable and here as long as possible.

I don't know what is harder, a sudden death, or knowing it's coming, but not knowing when... I guess in a way we're all in this boat aren't we? :(
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Beaglemomma
Yes I am afraid that we are all in the same boat.  My Molly was 14 and I knew the time was coming but she was so healthy.  We took a walk in the morning and all was normal, then she had a stroke and we found out at the Vet that she had suddenly gone blind.  There was no choice she was frantic and so were we.  So sudden and yet expected, but our hearts are still broken and this happened last Thanksgiving.

You found the right place to express your feelings, with the most understanding and compassionate people on earth.  Stay here and there will always be someone to comfort you and understand.  This is a very difficult time for you and I an so sorry your baby is hurting.  Try to know that my Molly will be waiting for Rugby, as she was raised by a kitty.
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camunki
I am so sorry for all you are going thru with Rugby and the "not knowing" is the worst. I too, had a precious pet Munki, who was one month shy of 14 y/o when she crossed the bridge. My vet saw about 20 nodules in her lungs and within 6 days her health drastically declined, moreso on the last 2 days. Give your baby love as I am sure you are doing and i pray he does get better, live life to the fullest with hope next to you..........yes this boat we are all in/were in sucks, it takes the life out of you.....cherish every minute and I pray that your Rugby can live a longer healthier life...

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Reese0317
Thank you for your kind words and empathy.  This is so incredibly hard to go through.  I can barely stand seeing my sweet boy decline.  He's still eating well, and purring loud.  But it seems like his brain cancer is starting to win over.  He's starting to slightly drag his right foot around and sometimes walks on his front right knuckles.  The hard thing, is that I can see in his eyes that he just wants to be normal.  He just wants to jump up where he used to, meows around for food, and hand out with his family.  It's hard to see his body give out before his mind.

My husband is not being helpful at all.  He seems to really be avoiding the problem. I know it's hard for him too.  But it's hard to go through this without the love and support of my husband.  I just need him to be home more to help do what I used to around the house while I look after our cat.  And to give emotional support in such a hard time.  I don't feel like that's too much to ask.  

But, I'm trying to stay sane over here, not focus on the bad, although I'm getting so exhausted and so sad.  I'm looking at the things to be grateful for:
- The past few precious weeks with my little boy
- The internal specialist who drained all that fluid from his lung so he could breathe better and come home
- The constant support of our primary vet, calling to check on Rugby every few days, and always offering help if I need it.
- Friends checking in on me to see how we are both doing
- Vet friend who said she'd come over to our home when it was time if he needs to go that way. 
-My mom who spent her day waiting with me and drove us home from the specialist 45 away.

~EVERY SINGLE SNUGGLE, PURR, AND KISS I GET WITH RUGBY

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camunki
hi I sure hope your Rugby is keeping on living on.....and i am glad you are looking at the grateful things our precious pets give to us....keep those good thoughts in mind and keep doing what you are doing to keep your Rugby as happy and healthy as he can be....many positive prayers your way!

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Reese0317
Thank you for your support. Although the end is near. He had to be rushed to the hospital Friday to have his lung drained again, but this time the barrier between the two sides of his little chest was broken down, so fluid was collapsing both lungs. The procedure saved his life and speed him a lot of suffering, so he could come home and be at peace. But the cancer is winning. He's doing well under the circumstances, but not bouncing back as well as before. I can tell he's in no pain, but at the same time, doesn't feel well and it's time. I have a vet friend coming over this week to put him to rest, and hopefully we make it until then with no emergencies.

All I want is for my little boy to be calm and loved through the last moments of his life and will do everything I can to give him that. :*(

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silvermini3
I'm sorry Reese, I understand the experience well. My thoughts are with you.
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Reese0317
We had to put Rugby to sleep Sunday night. They came to our home and he was so peaceful and just went to sleep. Still such a hard thing to do. I just miss my baby so much. Not much makes me feel better about the inevitable. It was time and the best for him. But I'm just so sad. So is his feline brother, which makes it even harder for me. At least we have each other to go through this with.
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camunki
I am so sorry for the loss of your baby Rugby....and yes, cancer sucks! i know I had two of my babies cross that bridge last year and my heart still aches for them. And yes, keep giving the love to Rugbys feline brother.......and yes, this will be a difficult time, the first few weeks are by far the worst, even months ahead you will have your ups and downs and tears coming out of nowhere. Please know you are not alone and keep posting, it truly helps.

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