Oh, ClaireBear ~ I'm so sorry the pain isn't lifting for you. It's normal to still feel some sadness now and then, but I would hope that you are having some better days now. Do you think there might be any chance that you're refusing to let go of the pain for fear of letting go of him? I ask because I've seen that happen before, and it's absolutely understandable how that works. The fact is, we never, ever let go of them as long as we live, but we can release the guilt and pain as time goes on. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to feel better for a little while until it becomes second nature to us. It's O.K. to heal. Smiling and laughing again doesn't mean you are not being respectful of the one who has gone on ahead. I believe that they want us to enjoy life, and when we aren't healing and following their example of living life to its fullest, they feel sad that we didn't learn the lesson. Remember how our animals live their lives. They live in the moment. They don't dwell on sorrows or think about what they wish life were now. They live in the here and now, making the most of what life has to offer today. But they always remember old friends when they see them again. We could learn a lot from them, and that is one of the biggest lessons they teach us while they're here. How to roll with the punches and move forward. Have you considered opening your heart and home to a new friend to spend your days with? It really does help us to see that life goes on, but our memories are with us forever. If anything, loving again makes me feel closer to my Bridge Kids because I know they had a paw in bringing me together with the new ones who have needed me. There are other options, too. You could help out at a shelter a day or two a week and get a dose of fur love that way, or you could foster dogs in need. You wouldn't have to make a life-long commitment that way, but you could get your puppy love in smaller doses and help the pups who are looking for their forever families. It's amazing how much they can help us to heal. I hope that something I've suggested here will help you to begin facing days that are filled with more smiles than tears. I'm sending you virtual hugs of comfort and healing.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery