ilovediggy
I put my Puggle, Diggy, down about 6 weeks ago. He had epilepsy for almost 7 years and his seizure clusters were getting worse and the meds he was on were no longer working like they used to. First of all, I still feel so guilty. Diggy was my best friend - there were different meds, more I could have done - why did I listen to his Vet instead of taking him in to the Specialist for a second opinion. It felt too soon then and it still does now. Second of all - I miss him so much. Some days it just hits me - like a truck to my gut - I can't believe he's gone. Being at home without him is the absolute hardest. I haven't been able to put all his stuff away - it's all still there were it was before he was gone. Do anyone of you have any advise to get through this? I thought by now it would get easier day by day. Everyone has said it just takes time. But honestly day by day I feel worse instead of better. Any wise words? I'm going crazy with heart break. RIP my sweet Diggy, still love you as big as the moon and the stars and the whole universe.
kathy c
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Mistysmama
I am so sorry about the loss of your sweet boy Diggy.

It doesn't go away like that. Missing them never goes away at all. At 6 weeks the pain is still raw. It isn't easy when a loved one goes. And even years later we still miss them but the pain does get easier believe me. It kind of merges with you until it is possible to live with it, and not shocking any more. But I still cry sometimes for missing my girl, even though I can get on with my life.

But my life has changed shape and will never be the shape it was again. I bear the scars because they are my love wounds. My love is strong for my girl as well. Yes it confuses the Soul sometimes -how a loved one can be so close they are woven forever into the actual fabric of your Being -and yet they are not there!
But they definitely are there in your heart and Soul.
Hold the love like a little light. It is all you have, or will ever have, to find your way home.

Misty's Blog..a Dogfight with Cancer http://www.mistysblog69.blogspot.co.uk

Misty's life after death: http://www.dog2spirit.com
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Dalidog
Well Said MistysMama..   so true.  I'm sorry for the loss of Diggy, Kathy.  We all know how hard it is.  Almost 7 months ago for me and I still cry every day and miss my best friend.  She will always be with me as your Diggy will be with you.  Hugs to you and Diggy..from me and Dali

Dali, as much a daughter as any human...  pure love
Until we meet again

http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/DALI003/Resident.htm

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LulusMom
Kathy, I know exactly how you feel. Time seems to stand still when we have lost our loves. The hurt and anger broaden, and we self-judge ourselves that there may have been something more we could have done. You in time will see Diggy seizure-free, living healthy, waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. But there will be days you've felt like you've been kicked in the gut, and other days that are more manageable.

I lost my Lulu one year ago today, and it hit me real hard yesterday and today, remembering how weak she was from cushings disease, losing weight from not eating even though we gave her appetite pills, and her skin was so translucent, I was scared I would hurt her when I picked her up and cuddled her. She might have lived like that another week, but I couldn't bear to watch her suffer anymore. She was 9 pounds and losing weight every day, and now when I look back at her final pictures I can see how sick she was. It's heartwrenching.

I wish I could tell you your grief will go away soon, but in my case, it has taken several months, and even now it's knocked me down again. Coming here to express your feelings really helps, as so many are going through the same emotions you are.

So very sorry about your poor Diggy, please post some pictures.


*Hugs*  Barb
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ilovediggy
Thank you all so much for your beautiful ,kind words. They really do help. I know the hurt of missing him will never go away but I thought by now it would be just slightly better. It doesn't help that I can tell everyone around me is thinking "why is she still so upset and crying" even though they appear supportive I can feel them wanting me to snap out of it. 

Question for any of you or whoever can answer. Have you gotten another dog/pet? If so, how long did you wait? Part of me feels that if I have another dog to care for it will take some of the pain away. Don't get me wrong, I will never forget about or stop hurting from losing Diggy. He was my first dog and the special care he needed his whole life because of his seizures really bonded us - it was such a special relationship. But I am starting to feel like getting another dog may help. Thoughts??

Also, I attached a pic of my sweet boy
kathy c
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Mistysmama
There are no 'rights' or 'wrongs' with grieving and how we cope, and friends (including new furry family members) who come along to help us cope with our lives. The only thing to do is what you feel in your heart. Another dear one to care for won't stop you loving and remembering Diggy, and will not stop him loving you too.
There are no rules....just do what your heart wants to do.
Hold the love like a little light. It is all you have, or will ever have, to find your way home.

Misty's Blog..a Dogfight with Cancer http://www.mistysblog69.blogspot.co.uk

Misty's life after death: http://www.dog2spirit.com
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LulusMom
I did get another dog - the house was so awfully quiet and we have never been without a dog in the house. Izzy is the same breed as Lulu, but is a black and silver, not a salt and pepper that Lulu was. So she looks different. Izzy will never take the place of Lulu, I still speak to Lulu as if she was here with me. A big part of me hopes she is.

Everyone must make their own choice as to whether to let another dog/puppy into their lives.  I hope you find the answer in your own time.

Barb
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