My cat was a my everything too. My little anchor, my little steadfast companion through almost 17 years.
It has been 5 Sundays since she passed. I guess it's Monday now, but I've been up actively grieving while the kids and partner are asleep. Not having to put on the front of being okay, when I'm really not okay. Sundays just hit like a truck out of nowhere.. I'm sorry for your loss. The pain sucks.. guilt is normal. Bargaining, normal. Some go through more than others. I'm sorry if my words don't help.. But just know everyone here absolutely understands what you are going through. No one here will ever think you are wrong for the amount of grief you need to go through or for how you go through it. Hugs and love to you during this difficult time.
Diane, pet parent of Calypso- my most true love/princess/mama kitty.. (July 2018) Patrick- my sweet boy (June 2013) Clover- my pookie bear (May 2001) I love you all and miss you, always "Youth's like diamonds in the sun And diamonds are forever.."