Let me tell you about my Gracie. She was 16 1/2 yrs old West Highland Terrier.I let her go June 18,2018.She was my best friend. When she was young she would go out to the front yard with me..and would find the morning paper and carry it in and bring it to me. She was always so excited to do this .
She was diagnosed 6 months -1 year ago with dementia . We found her one morning with grease down her back, we really didn't think too much about it then.Just thought she crawled under something outside. Until about a month later we heard Gracie crying in the garage one night .She had gotten under my VW bug, and her feet went out from under her and was stuck and couldn't get out . After that it just seem like she started going down hill. She got a sore on one of her ears, that wouldn't heal. Took her to the Vet because we thought maybe she was diabetic because she was also losing her functions at night and peeing the bed. Instead she was tested to have low blood sugar.
After that she started to have seizures, every couple of days
Last week of her life she could hardly walk.We would pick her up to take her outside..and Gracie started to eat less , the last few days she only ate if I hand fed her one or two bites of food...I cried everyday because I knew I was watching her slowly dying. At times when she was on the couch with me...it was hard for her to even hold her head up. At night her breathing was very labored, it was like she was having trouble breathing thru her nose. Breathing so loud I would hear her at night next to our bed. I know she hardly slept .
So my husband and I decided to let her go. The Vet asked if we both agreed. They checked her and she was running a fever, and her belly was swollen .The Vet also thought because of her belly.. he suspected maybe cancer .
But with all this I'm still feeling guilty, that I had to let her go. Still haunts me, my heart is broken.I would give anything to still have her here . Why do I still feel so guilty?