Paw_in_hand
My name's Jess and I just had to put my baby boy Hendrix to sleep on Monday the 6th. He was 11 years old and had a large tumor in his spleen and he wasn't doing good so it was time. He was by my side 24/7 for 11 years. Seriously we were never apart. He got me through so much. My other baby Blaze died back in 2014 on my birthday no less after suffering from 22 seizures through the night and I held her the whole time. Hendrix was there and saw it all. He changed after that and would never let me out of his sight. I have medical issues and pass out from time to time and Hendrix was always there trying to help me up or trying to get help. I can't have children and I'm 33 so he was my son. I'm just so lost right now. I don't know how to live without him. I can't even be in my house because it physically hurts right now. To make it even harder is his little sister Jade won't stop crying and searching for him and it's just heart breaking. They were very very very close so she's devastated right now just like me. I don't think life will ever be the same. I feel like a huge part of me is just gone and I just want him back......💔😭 I'm sorry to unload all this on here but I just feel so lost and alone like no one can understand how much this hurts
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chilover
Jess.

I am deeply sorry for the loss of your baby boy Hendrix.
I'm also sorry to hear about the loss of your other baby Blaze who died back in 2014. It breaks my heart to think of his little sister Jade crying and searching for him. I know exactly how you are feeling and others on this forum will too. Loosing our pets is immensely painful 'beyond words'.! Grief is different for each and everyone of us. I lost my beautiful Chihuahua 'Daisy' 5 months ago & I have cried every single day.Just like you I don't have children & Daisy was my entire world so I understand. I lived alone with her and I'm lost! , You will get support on this forum as people on here understand so please keep in touch and please be gentle with yourself. I hope that you have some friends or family members who are being supportive. Sending you comfort and peace during this difficult time.

Angelina
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MikeK_123
Jess,

There is nothing to be sorry for in sharing your story and pain.  All of us on have or are currently going through something similar.  I am very sorry for your loss.  I have started on this forum a few days ago and in the chat room.  Angelina is right - it helps.  It sounds like your bond was very special.  As much as the separation hurts - try to focus on the time you had together.  Many people don't get to experience something that special....

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Mike
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Mistysmama
Dear Paw-in-hand,
We all here have such stories to tell, and we all carry such grief and pain. You are welcome to say anything you need to here. It doesn't matter how long, or how short. We are with you.

I am so very sorry for your loss xx
Hold the love like a little light. It is all you have, or will ever have, to find your way home.

Misty's Blog..a Dogfight with Cancer http://www.mistysblog69.blogspot.co.uk

Misty's life after death: http://www.dog2spirit.com
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