Hi Rachmichelle... even though we’ve already “met” on my post, I wanted to say hello again on yours, and express that I’m so sorry about your Perry. What happened to him sounds very similar to what happened to my Buddy: sudden clot, internal bleeding, gone so quickly. I found out later, after his necropsy, that he had undetected heart disease and tracheal cancer, as well as mild asthma (the asthma was the only condition we knew about beforehand).
I know exactly what you mean about the feeling of trauma, due to the panic & distress and the lack of a real goodbye. The night we lost Buddy, and came home from the emergency vet hospital without him, I was in so much shock that I was hallucinating. It’s the closest I’ve ever come to literally losing my mind. Scary and awful. I’m glad you found this place, and that you’re able to vent your grief here and feel less alone. We truly do understand, and can offer comfort & support. Sending you hugs...
Cindy (Buddy’s mama)
My baby Buddy 5/4/10-3/7/20, rescued March 2011 My sweet Mandy 11/27/91-11/2/10, rescued November 1992 My beautiful Barney 4/28/73-9/7/92, adopted May 1973