Ponchosmommie
Two months ago today, my baby boy became an angel.  I still feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. I haven't had a day without tears, and I still sleep with his blanket. It's still hard to believe that he's gone. The house seems empty and quiet without him. My only comfort is having him here with me in his oak urn. Poncho was my constant companion 24/7 for almost 10 years. Losing him is the hardest, most devastating thing I've ever experienced in my almost 60 years. I feel so lost without him. He was a little "love bug" who just loved to give kisses. His favorite place in the world was in my arms.

I miss you Poncho, and love you with all my heart; and will for the rest of my life.

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Susie_Squillions
You are in my thoughts and prayers today.  I hope you will soon find the sense of  gratitude for having known Poncho will overpower your sense of loss.  It's so hard to recover from saying goodbye to our best friends, and you are in my thoughts and prayers today.

I had an epiphany last Friday, on T.J.'s one month marker, when I realized that while he was with us, he was ours to love. Now he belongs to the universe.  The universe became very, very fortunate on the day his boundless love became a part of it. 

I'm sending virtual hugs your way.


My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)

"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley

T.J.'S RESIDENCY:
http://RainbowsBridge.com/residents/TJ006/Resident.htm

BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
http://www.rainbowsbridge.com/residents/Buddy128/resident.HTM

KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/BINGO009/Resident.htm

In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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Ponchosmommie
Thank you, Susie.  Having him was worth all the pain I'm suffering now.  It's just so hard to make my mind behave!  He's in my every thought...  Like looking in the sun room and seeing the wicker rocker he loved to "sun" in!  He was everywhere in this house, and it's heartbreaking that's he's not here anymore. Everyone here KNOWS that feeling. I'm trying to stay busy....thank you again.  My heart aches for every pet lost here, and every sick, abandoned and abused animal everywhere. I wish I had the power to save them all. When those things come on the TV, I have to turn the channel.
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Susie_Squillions
Maybe one day you'll be in a position to rescue one of those animals who needs a loving forever home for the time they have left here.  There are so many of them, and I know Poncho would be so proud of you ~ and happy for you ~ if you opened your heart to love again.  That's how our animals do it, after all.  They accept what is, and they make the best of every new day.  We could learn so much from them!

I understand that right now is too soon for you to make that kind of leap of faith, but maybe one day Poncho will make the decision for you by guiding you to another friend who needs the kind of love only you can give.

((((Poncho's Mommy))))


My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)

"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley

T.J.'S RESIDENCY:
http://RainbowsBridge.com/residents/TJ006/Resident.htm

BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
http://www.rainbowsbridge.com/residents/Buddy128/resident.HTM

KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/BINGO009/Resident.htm

In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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Ponchosmommie
Susie, that's exactly what I plan to do...just not yet. I still have a beautiful black lab/bloodhound I got from the SPCA 10 years ago. We aren't sure of her exact age, but we know she's getting up there. I've been giving her the "extras"...she eats it up! I know she still misses her little brother. In time, I will get another.  Right now, I need more healing.  Thank you for being here :-)
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