Hello. I am so sorry about your Tucker, especially as he was so young. I know how you are feeling, I really do. My sweetheart was a house bunny, Timothy. We lost him suddenly in August. He was only 3years 8months. He is laid to rest in our garden, and at the beginning it was very hard to take my mind from him being there. Even though he was a rabbit, he preferred to be indoors, and I hated myself for leaving him outside, but the thought of cremating his little self was even worse. Every morning before I went to work was our little playtime, so now I sit for a while outside with him, take myself off to a different place, have a chat and a few tears. It is sort of comforting.
Everyone grieves in their own way. My husband took himself away and grieved in private. I know he cried a lot secretly, because he loved that bunny like crazy. You never think the hard, raw grief is going to go away, but it does over time. I think what replaces it is just an emptiness and a wall. The wall, to me, is a point were it's not going to get any better than it is. So we get back to some sort of 'normality' because we just have to, but every tiny moment inbetween belongs to our little angel and that's just how it's going to be. But it's a special place to go to.
Thinking of you
" The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before. That's the deal" C.S. Lewis