I am so truly sorry for the loss of your precious Daisy, it is never easy to lose such a loved and valued member of our family.
I have been reading through your threads, the sudden emptiness left behind is one of the hardest adjustments to make, I am touched by your love for your sweet Daisy, the way you describe her beautiful eyes deeply touched my heart.
Angelina, the thoughts you have had about the whole process is normal, I completely understand how difficult this can be on you, I take Bella’s urn with me everywhere I go, it brings me comfort, she always went everywhere with me when she was here and I’m not ready to break that tradition just yet, I sleep with her urn, and you know what, sometimes I honestly think I can hear her snoring, yep, that little girl could snore like an adult, always made me laugh, even though it kept me up I loved to watch her sleep and snore, I also have her blankets on our bed, for when she wants to visit and crawl in. We need to do what we feel will help us through this difficult time of heartbreak. I hope reading this can help you in anyway with your broken heart, grieving takes time, we all grieve at our own pace, there is no time limit for grieving, so please be gentle on yourself and never let anyone try to tell you when you are done grieving.
The dreams you have had of your precious Daisy, I honestly believe they are sending us a message through our dreams, and maybe that is their way of visiting us and letting us know they are always close, I even had a couple of upsetting dreams at the beginning as well, but over time the good dreams are more frequent and I enjoy the way they make me feel when I wake up, our Angels reaching out from beyond…..
Angelina, I also had a very hard time being around other dogs after little girl had to leave, just like you, tears filled my eyes seeing other dogs. I was jealous of those people who were out walking their dogs, I would look away as it would upset me so much, but in time I can now look at dogs, and I especially enjoy seeing Chihuahuas, I can now compare them to Bella where as before I would break down, it took me well over a year, I think even longer, but time does help, time doesn’t completely heal your shattered heart, but in time you will find comfort in those things that are so difficult right now. Tears still fall, yes, even five years later, but they are softer now, and less frequent, I can now smile more and laugh with Vera about all the funny things Bella did. Our babies gave us those fun moments to hold and use to help our hearts mend, it does take time, so please don’t push or rush yourself, Daisy watches over you, sending her love each day to help you when she can, I sincerely hope that your heart can feel her love and warmth, never doubt, just believe.
Thank you for your message on Bella’s thread, I really appreciate you writing. I apologize for not responding earlier, but the last two weeks have been really hectic.
I noticed you haven’t posted any photos of your precious Daisy, if you feel up to it I would love to see her, of course I completely understand if you aren’t ready at this time, whenever you are ready, no rush.
Sending my warmest wishes for peace, strength and healing to find your heart, may your heart always know and feel the pure love and light that is your sweet Daisy.
Sincerely and in friendship, Don, Vera and forever little Bella.