I was just sitting in my den and crying. I miss Pecan so much and I can’t believe she has left the earth. Just like you I keep thinking why her, why so soon, why did god take her away from me. Did I miss the signs. Did all the things that seemed normal to me caused her early death? Wasn’t I a good owner? Why didn’t I know more l? How did I let this happen? Did I fail her? Did I let her down? Am I being punished for something? But what did I do that I deserve this punishment? Even if I did something wrong why did my beautiful loyal Pecan had to suffer? Was she suffering and I was too busy to notice? I loved her with all my heart and I miss her hugs and kisses. I miss her beautiful face and kind eyes. Why if I did things differently? Did I cause this? Could I have prevented it? I know how you feel and I know how hard it is. Please be kind to yourself. I’m sure Bella knows how much you loved her. If you didn’t you would be writing about her here. I wish you peace and happiness. I’m praying for you. Please keep me in your prayers.