Thank you for all of your lovely messages.
I have had a weekend just to think it over. I found it so hard visiting my parents, I live with my boyfriend now, and I opened the door and our other two dogs came rushing in and I couldn't help but look for him. It was almost as if my heart was playing tricks on me. I just wanted to hold him and play fetch all day with him if that was what he wanted. He was our gentle giant. The watcher over our two insane Jack Russells, Milo and Juno. He would never hurt anyone and he was just such a beautiful dog. Old, wise, gentle and so pure of heart. He was addicted to fetch. Anything, any time, any place - he wanted to fetch. A real doggy dog - the only one of our dogs who is well behaved enough to sit, stay, roll over, paw etc without the bribe of a doggy treat. It is just horrible. I only hope he knows that I am sorry that I couldn't give him 100% of my time when the other two dogs wanted me too. He will always have a place in my heart but in a way I feel relieved that he is free from any discomfort and pain. I just miss my old man. Thank you all for your support. I hope one day I can feel better about losing my old friend. xxxx
"Goodbye love, goodbye love. Just came to say, goodbye love. Goodbye."