I am so deeply touched that you have taken the time to post this message for me. I can't even begin to tell you what it means today. I knew this would be a hard day to face, but I never dreamed it would hit me as hard as it's hitting. I've had other first Bridge Day markers, but I think it's fair to say (and even my other angels would agree) that T.J. was my soul cat. I told him every day that he was the Very Center of the Heart of My Momcat Heart. He truly was.
On March 8th last year, a poem came to me, fully ready to be written down. It was about our impending farewell. At the time I had no idea that our farewell would be just 15 hours later, on the 9th. Last evening, again on March 8th, another poem came to me. I rushed to the computer to record it. I now know that Teege sent both of them to me. He knew last year that his poem had to be written while he was still with me. I couldn't bear to write about him in the past tense.
Here they are:
Susan "Susie Squillions" Lynch, March 8, 2010
T.J. is the cat with the shimmering fur
Who rumbles a big, strong, leonine purr.
He has the most smashing, magnificent coat
Colored in shades of brown, gold, peach, and oat.
He rattles the rafters with greatest effect
You'll know what he's saying, oh yes, you can bet!
His meow is the best that you'll ever hear
Whether it comes from quite far, or quite near.
The day that we met, he leaped into my arms
And wiggled right into my heart with his charms.
A heart that was broken from saying goodbye
To another wonderful, special, fur guy.
I swore that Bingo had tossed him to me
As if to say, "This is the one meant for thee."
T.J. and me, we couldn't have fought it
We were meant to be, no doubt about it.
I became Momcat and he was my fur son,
I didn't know then he'd become Number One
Within my heart in the blink of an eye,
I thought he was just sent to silence my cries.
But he was the one who helped me to heal
And filled me with love that was ever so real.
He taught me that, yes, I could open my heart
And that loving him was the best way to start.
Now he is the one who is breaking my heart.
The time will soon come when we'll have to part
So he can go on to his new life above,
But I know he'll surround me with all his love.
* Rest In Peace and watch over us, beautiful T.J. You made your journey to the Rainbow Bridge at 1:50 PM on March 9th, 2010. You will always be the Heart of My Ever-Lovin', Brown-Eyed Momcat Heart.
By Susan "Susie Squillions" Lynch, March 8th, 2011
On the eve of T.J.'s first Bridge Day celebration
Where does time go
In the space of one year?
The memories, so distant
At once feel so near.
The scent of your fur,
The gaze in your eyes,
The sound of your purr...
Then I realize
That they're only memories
Of things I hold dear
From when you were with me
At this time last year.
It's all just a time warp.
Wherever you are,
You live in my heart
So near yet so far.
T.J. made his journey at 1:51 PM on March 9th, 2010.