The English language does not contain appropriate words to console you and all others who have lost their soulmates, their companions. All I can say is my heart goes out to you on your double loss. I'm so sorry. You have come to the right place tho' as we all understand you INTENSE pain. Grief and the road to recovery comes in all shapes and sizes TriciaK. There is no "normal" in the amount of time our tears for our loved one flow. The second page here at RB Bridge has two articles of comfort. Pls read them one is "Suggestions for Someone Who's Grieving" and the another is about Euthanasia. Another site that has given me great comfort is at http://www.pet-loss.net At their page "Ten Tips on Coping with the Loss of a Pet" under the heading "Guilt" it states "Guilt may occur if you feel responsible for your pet's death--the 'if only I had been more careful' syndrome. It is pointless and ofter erroneous to burden yourself with guilt for the accident or illness that claimed your pet's life, and only makes it more difficult to resolve your grief." Your friend is right about writing out your feelings and this is the place to do it. Pls keep sharing, we'll keep replying. My user name is is always_tuffy. He was a dog, but I have 2 cats and have had many over the years. This time my best friend, Tuffy, was sick for a week, and even tho' I'd taken him to the vet 4 times that week and the vet said he was getting better I knew he wasn't. After a reallly rough weekend with him at home, on Monday July 26, 2010, I took him in at 9:45am. I watched the vet carry him back to ICU. I left so assured that the vet would make him better--he died at 10 am, before I even go home. So, TriciaK I know about the GUILT and the "IF ONLYS". Your other babies need your love and attention, let them help you heal. As far as the pet communicator goes, to each their own. But I contend that if you sit quitely and LISTEN--your babies will come to you, with a thought or possibly with a physical sign. In any case TriciaK, they loved you, they know you loved them, they are at peace and THEY FORGIVE YOU. always_tuffy Tuffy's Momma Puppy
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal;
Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
Tuffy, My Puppy Love
June 20, 2005-July 26, 2010
Becky Leigh, Queen of my Heart
December 2010-November 10, 2015