Jeeno2
Today is the 4th day since I had to make that terrible and impossible decision to put my sweet Brava to sleep. She had a cancerous tumor that the vet had done all she could for here. The other option would have been to take her to a specialist is Seattle (a couple hundred miles away) and because of other issues they didn’t know if she’d be a good candidate, or if the outcome would be any different. That option would also have been very expensive. It was the hardest, and most painful thing I’ve ever gone through and my heart aches so badly. I was with her and she went peacefully. I could not leave her afterwards and stayed with her until they came to get her. I just sat on the floor with her holding her and sobbing. There are three other dogs in the house but there is a huge emptiness. I’m crying less on day 4 but I’m afraid to feel better because I don’t want to forget. I will be making an area for her urn and collar and things so I can see her everyday, and I have started writing down things that she did so I won’t forget. I just miss her. I had no idea there was a website like this where I can talk about her with people who understand.
Jeanne Moore
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regglynn

It’s day 3 for me. And I cannot stop thinking about my Sassy. She was an 11 year rescue chihuahua. She was in diabetic keto acidosis. I just want to know she is ok now. And she forgives me  

I know it gets easier. But this guilt over her is so hard to handle. 

 

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Jeeno2
I completely understand what you’re going through. I don’t know if you are a religious person but I looked for some bible verses to help me. I particularly like Luke 12:6 “Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God.” And Ecclesiastes 3:19-20. I believe my girl is now healthy and standing tall (something she couldn’t do before because she had arthritis in her spine) and will greet me when I arrive. Sorry to be all preachy, it has just helped me feel a little better. And, yesterday I saw a beautiful rainbow which I took as a sign (right or wrong). 
Jeanne Moore
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