Hi Lyn, I’m so sorry for your loss. I relate to your feelings about the vet, with costs and things. And also to feeling “pressure” to move forward in a direction that you haven’t really thought through yet. I don’t know how to describe that pressure either, because it’s not like anyone’s forcing you to do it, it’s hard to explain. It’s almost like an unspoken pressure to make a decision and then an unspoken air in the room of what is felt to be the right one. It carries a sort of forward momentum and can push us in a direction because we know it’s what is expected. Sometimes, it’s even a thought in the back of our minds we just haven’t fully let come forward yet to completely form it and know how we feel about it. But it got pushed forward because of the situation. I’m sorry you were in that position though. It means having to come to terms with your decision after the fact instead of before. But from what you’ve described, it sounds like there wasn’t much choice. Even if it wasn’t a matter of money, it doesn’t sound like there was much hope. If you had done the maximum amount of treatment, and he had three more months, what would that time have been like for him? Medication can make you wonky to say the least, and then would he have even been able to live a normal life, run, play around, etc? Would you have been able to enjoy that time with him or would it have been filled with anxiety about his health? I know that we as humans and caretakers of our beloved companions want to give them everything and as much time as possible in life. But sometimes the loving thing to do isn’t to keep them going, not when their bodies have given out, but to actually give them release from that. Our pets don’t plan for the future, they don’t think to themselves, I have a short time left so I want to enjoy every possible moment left— that’s human thinking. What our pets do know is the moment. And how would each moment have been for him? Tired? Groggy and off from medication? I’m sure there would have been some loving moments between you two as well, but just the same, at what cost? I think you did right by Wally. Sometimes knowing that doesn’t always make it that much easier, because they’re still gone, we still miss them and want them back. But I hope it helps with some of the guilt. I know this is a very hard time for you and my heart goes out to you. When I first read your story earlier today, it really caught my attention because we have certain similarities. I also came here in 2007 because my two dogs died, in 2008 my mom also died, and now here we are again dealing with another loss, not to mention the other losses you have had. I am very sorry you’ve been through all of this and wanted to extend my condolences. I hope you’re able to find some peace and comfort today.