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westielover
Thank You, Olive227. Yes, Maggie May had a very special love story and I miss her so much. Her life was clearly cut short by the horrible disease known as diabetes. I believe that diabetes is every bit the devastating death sentence disease that cancer is. No matter how hard you try to avoid it, diabetes eventually leads to heart disease and death. You could be doing all of the right things like making sure your dog is receiving the right amount of insulin, testing her blood sugar levels, and taking her to the vet regularly, and yet those devastating complications happen, anyway. That's why I believe diabetes is a horrible death sentence disease. I've now had two dogs who were diabetic and the end results were the same. One died  1 1/2 years after diagnosis and Maggie May died two years after diagnosis. Despite my efforts to keep them safe, healthy and happy, their health similarly took a turn for the worse with the same terminal symptoms of a heart murmur, enlargememt of the heart, congestive heart failure, and fluid in the lungs. Coincidence? No. I promised my dog Maggie that heart disease wasn't going to happen. Unfortumately, I couldn't keep that promise because, based on my expieriences with dogs, diabetes eventually kills with heart disease. I am very lonely without Maggie May. Home is so empty without Maggie May. I am miserable without hurt.
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spiritdog
I am so sorry. My Sidekick just died 5 days ago. He had Cushings, diabetes, hypothyroidism, severe arthritis, chronic bronchial disease, lipemia, bacterial skin infections, yeast ear infection, and few others I can't remember right now. But a total of 10 diseases. If he was suffering he never showed it, he just was Mr. Happy happy, bouncy bouncy.

But he was like the energizer bunny, he just kept going and going, and so did I. He had a zest for life, he had a forever puppy face, he never gave up.......

The ER vet said congestive heart failure, his Cush Specialist said he threw a clot.

I too am all alone. In 18 months I have lost my "pack" 1 cat of 17 years, Hunter the gol dang poodle who also was diagnosed with diabetes when Side was diagnosed with Cushings

and now Sidekick ...........oh and my parents died too.

So if you see me down in the Right hand corner we can chat about it all.

I do KNOW.
"People disappoint, dogs never do" - spiritdog

"You MUST be your pets ADVOCATE, if it doesn't feel right walk away." - spiritdog
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Mistysmama
I lost my whole pack too. Misty was the last. My sweet Soul sister. A great and amazing comfort to me is she does come to visit sometimes and shows me she's ok and we have a virtual cuddle. But how my heart swells when I sense her!
Hold the love like a little light. It is all you have, or will ever have, to find your way home.

Misty's Blog..a Dogfight with Cancer http://www.mistysblog69.blogspot.co.uk

Misty's life after death: http://www.dog2spirit.com
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westielover
Spiritdog, I am so sorry for all of your losses. Like myself, I'm sure you worked hard to keep the diabetes under control. But, despite our efforts, the end result is always congestive heart failure and death. Diabetes is such a cruel disease that robs our beloved pets of their health and takes away years from their lives. Whether it be blindness, hypothyroidism, skin infections, or ear infections, diabetes does and will destroy major organs. With no human family nor pet family alive, we both understand the devastation and loneliness of losing our pets.
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spiritdog
Westie I am not sure if he died from congestive heart failure or if he threw a clot as his Specialist said. Side had a triple whammy adding in the Cushings and the hypothyroidism. First was the Hypo, then the cushings which then sent him into diabetes.

I have been on a dog diabetic board for years and no one has ever said what you are saying. Lots of dogs there are 4-6 years into diabetes! But I will ask my Specialist about what you say and see if he agrees. No one has ever said that. I am curious now to know.

What really set him over the edge 10 months ago was that I had to board him with a vet (she was very kind and took him home every night), because I had to fly home because my mom died, dad then died while I was there so I had to stay longer. But the stress of his life being changed with all his diseases ate up all of his reserve. He never bounced back. So for the last 10 months he had problem after problem. But ALWAYS Mr. Happy happy, bouncy bouncy.......no one knew he was sick, people thought he was a puppy even up to this past week.

So for me I blame the stress.
But I will agree .........I HATE DIABETES.

Curiously, did you home test the blood? Do curves at home? That is what many do, but I couldn't.
I had a poodle who became diabetic the same time Side was diagnosed with Cushings and he hated being pricked for blood. Yes he died too, Jan. 16, 2012. I had a necropsy done, but no one could tell me what happened. I showed it to 3 different vets and got 3 different answers.
"People disappoint, dogs never do" - spiritdog

"You MUST be your pets ADVOCATE, if it doesn't feel right walk away." - spiritdog
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westielover
Spiritdog, i speak from my own experiences. My last two West Highland White Terriers both developed diabetes and it was all downhill after that. When Maggie May was diagnosed with diabetes, I asked my vet how long I can expect to keep her alive. His reply was that if you get two more years you've done extremely well. And that is all I got. 2 years. I would have given anything to have had my diabetic Westie still be treated and going strong for 4-6 more years. Unfortunately, neither of my last two Westies got anywhere close to 4-6 more years after the initial diagnosis. So, I definitely disagree with the people on the canine diabetic board's positive prognosis. Anyway, to answer your question about testing at home: I didn't need to prick for blood. At my pharmacy, I bought blood/glucose urinanalysis testing strips. Each time she urinated, I used those strips to test her blood sugar. If the strips turned brown, it meant her levels were too high. If the strips turned blue, it meant the levels were too low. And if the strips turned green, it meant that the blood/glucose levels were right where they needed to be.
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spiritdog
Yes I only did the urine strips too. Now I wonder if that was not as good as testing the blood daily?? Was that a failure on my part? The one that started that board, her dog lived I think 5 years. I don't know.

The Cushings board is one of those "positive" boards as well.

It will take time to figure out for me.

I think it was worth all the work on my part, he was bouncy and happy and I got 3 more years. If I had done nothing about the Cushings he would have been dead 3 years ago.

He was special, just like yours was to you.
"People disappoint, dogs never do" - spiritdog

"You MUST be your pets ADVOCATE, if it doesn't feel right walk away." - spiritdog
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westielover
No, it wasn't a failure on your part. The urine strips are just as accurate and reliable as testing the blood. You did nothing wrong. I'm glad you got three more years. The work is worth it because our pets give us unconditional love and they are family. There isn't anything we wouldn't have done for them. It's just the ultimate heartbreak when we lose them. We miss them terribly and always second-guess and ask ourselves if there was anything we could have done differently to change the outcome.
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westielover
Everyone, I really need some words of wisdom and advice. For the past six months (since Maggie May has been gone), I have been so very lonely and heartbroken without Maggie May. Out of all the dogs I've ever had, I had the closest and most special bond with her. In other words, as I've told everyone, Maggie May was the best and most special dog I've ever had. For the past six months, I've been so lonely without her and I've missed her so very much and I've cried often during that time. Someone gave me advice to get another dog which they said would help heal my broken heart and ease my loneliness. Last week, I found a girl Westie puppy at the exact same store my mom bought Maggie May for me 13 years ago. I put down a deposit and said I would pick her up today. During that time between then and now, I found all of Maggie May's bowls, toys, leashes, and blankets. I started to cry and put them away in storage. I bought new things for the new puppy who I named Mandy May. I picked her up today and took her home. I was happy that I have a dog in the house again but I feel very sad as to the finality of the loss of Maggie May. Can anyone identify with this? In one respect, I'm glad I have another dog (I have had at least one dog at home in the last 40 years). However, I feel like I'm betraying Maggie May in a way like I was replacing her. We had such a special bond together. This new puppy (Mandy) is very sweet` and extremely cute. Maybe it will take time for me to develop that bond? Maybe it will never happen? I'm afraid at the same time I'll forget the special love that I shared for 12 1/2 years with Maggie May. I'll be afraid with the new dog that my memories of Maggie May will fade. It was hard to live without any dog but it feels somewhat hard to give love to this new puppy (Mandy) without feeling guilty. Does anyone have any advice or know how I feel? If you do, please respond. I could sure use it.
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gayle


Westielover,

I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. I put my best friend, my Boston terrier down 6 weeks ago and I miss him terribly. This poem has helped me and I hope maybe it will help you too. Take care


I'm Still Here

Friend, please don't mourn for me,
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day,
And within your heart I'll always stay.

My body is gone but I'm always near,
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart,
As long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I'll never wander out of your sight.
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach.
I'm the warm moist sand when your at the beach.

I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around,
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers of which your so fond,
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine.

When you start to think theres no one to love you,
You can talk to me through The Lord above you.
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,
And you'll feel my prescence in the soft summer breeze.

I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep,
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face
Just look for me, friend, I'm everyplace!




gayle zigmund
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westielover
I'm struggling with my ambivalent feelings. Even though I miss Maggie May so much, I felt I needed to get another dog because I had been so lonely and the house was so empty. It has been six months since this horrible tragedy occurred. My precious Maggie May died of congestive heart failure on April 25, 2013. It was the second worst day of my life. The only day that was worse was when my mom died of cancer on September 25, 2001. Coincidentally enough, both wouldn't die without me there. Back in 2001, my mom died laying on a hospital bed as I was holding her hand. Maggie May died this past April as I was holding her in my arms at the vetertinarian's office. Anyway, even though this new puppy seems very sweet and loving, I still constantly think about how much I miss Maggie May. Six months isn't a long time so I'm obviously still grieving. It may take awhile before my new puppy is accepted into my heart (not because of her, but because of how much I miss Maggie May).

My mother's memory has been my inspiration. In the past 12 years since my mom has been gone, I've always asked myself "would my mom approve of what I'm doing? Is this what she would want for me?" There is no doubt in my mind that my mom would want me to get another dog. In fact, if my mom were alive today she would have bought me another dog herself. So, I have no guilty feelings in regards to my mom. My mom loved me too much and never wanted me to be lonely. But, what about how Maggie May would feel? After my mom died, for the past 12 years Maggie may and I had this incredible bond together. Wouldn't Maggie May feel that another dog was taking her place in a house that was her home and feel hurt? Wouldn't Maggie May feel hurt that another dog was taking her place in my heart? I am afraid that as I bond with Mandy that my memories of my special relationship with Maggie May will fade. I don't want to ever forget her. She meant too much to me as my mom did. Those are where my guilty feelings come from and I'm having a hard time dealing with them along with my grief to the loss of Maggie May. It's a struggle for me.
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sadieandsugar
Im sorry for your loss of your baby girl and yes she knows you loved her sooooo much, and yes she is herself again happy and whole up in doggy heaven, she is with my sweet SADIE GIRL, AND THEY ARE HAVING A GOOD TIME, I lost my sweet Sadie girl on dec 13, 2010, almost 3 years ago, I am so sad still and I still cry for her sometimes, I just want to hold her just one more time and give her a big kiss and hug, oh how I long for her everyday of my life and it was the  hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life time, Sadie was my soulmate and my precious baby girl and we had a very strong bond together, she also had diabetes too, I gave her insulin shots twice a day too, she was such a good girl too when I gave her a shot, she was a real trooper. she did good for a while on the insulin, but after a while her kidneys were shutting down, so I had to say goodbye, I didn't want her to suffer any more. I talk to her all the time, she is my little angel now in the clouds, and she is watching over me!!!!! you take care and godblessyou. sadiesmommy
my sweet sadie girl she was a pomeranian and she was the sweetest little girl ever, she loved every one and she loved life in general she was my child because my husband and I could never have kids of our own, so she was definately our daughter, she was thebest furkid ever in my life we were soul mates from the beginning , we adopted her when she was only 8 weeks old, she was so cute and then she turned out to be the most beautiful pomeranian ever I have ever seen in my life. she was with us for 8 wonderful years but I didnt think that was long enough she was so young when we had to put her to sleep, she had diabetes foe a few years and then her kidneys just started shutting down it was so sad it killed us when we had to say goodbye to sadie!!!!!!!
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westielover
SadieandSugar, it sounds like you truly understand what I'm going through. I've had other dogs before Maggie May. While I've loved all the dogs I've had throughout my life (as love all dogs), I had a special bond with Maggie May like no other. She was truly my "one in a million dog", my "heart dog," and my "soulmate". She touched my heart like no other. Every day, I gave Maggie May a big hug, told her how much I loved her, and I how I wished we could be together forever. I would always tell her that "my heart belongs to Maggie". She completely captured my heart and I never wanted to let go. I still don't. Even though I have a new puppy, Mandy, I still cry every day because of how much I miss my Maggie. It's been 8 months and it still hurts just as much as that horrible day last April. Thursday, April 25, 2013 will always be the second worst day of my life (the only day worse was Tuesday, September 25, 2001, which was the day my mom died). The bonding with my new puppy, Mandy, has been hard. The grief still feels so raw that it's just hard to get close to her without crying. I want to let Mandy into my heart but don't want ever let Maggie May out of my heart or forget what we had together. I'm still hurting so bad and don't know if it will ever get easier.
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westielover
Hello Everyone. I didn't want to start a new thread but I really hope everyone reads this and I get many responses. I need as much advice and understanding as possible. I am having a very difficult time with my new puppy Mandy. While I did not expect her to be exactly like my Maggie May (everyone is unique), since she is female and the same breed (West Highland White Terrier), I expected to see far more similarities than differences. Unfortunately, I'm just not seeing it. In so many circumstances, Mandy is doing the complete opposite of what my Maggie would do and it hurts. Mandy is either behaving very badly (my Maggie was such a good girl) or she is not behaving like a typical Westie would (Maggie totally defined what the breed is all about). I'll give you some examples that consistently makes me cry and miss my Maggie May even more than I already do. A typical Westie is known for their irresistable smile and laughing face with their tongue hanging out. My Maggie May, when she got excited and enthusiastic always had that joyous happy laughing face that made me love her so much. Mandy never smiles or laughs and it hurts. A typical Westie is a great watchdog. On my street, trash pickup is every Friday. Whenever the garbage truck would arrive, Maggie would always bark. Mandy says nothing. Whenever I would come home from work and unlock the door, I would always be greeted by hearing my Maggie barking. Maggie May would always bark whenever she would heart the doorbell ring or a knock at the door or see a stranger outside her window. Even when I was downstairs with Maggie she would let me know that my upstairs phone was ringing. Sounds and noises usually matters to the typical Westie. It made me love Maggie May so much (especially When I came home, unlocked the front door and opened it to immediately hear her wonderful barking voice. What a greeting). Mandy does none of those things and it hurts. Also, Mandy's behavior has been a problem. While Maggie would go out and exercise each day, she primarily lived in the kitchen with pet gates. There would always be newspapers on the floor as she was paper trained. Anyway, whenever I decided the kitchen floor really needed a good cleaning and sweeping, Maggie May was always such a good girl while I cleaned her kitchen (it was her home room). Recently, Mandy was impossible. She wouldn't let me pick up the newspapers and constantly tried to eat and chew the broom. She also was extremely hyper, out-of-control and bit my ankle hard and I bled all over the floor. It was horrible. I had to lock her up in another room to finish cleaning the kitchen (I never had to do that with Maggie). Maggie May would never do any of that. Mandy so bad for the kitchen cleaning and made me cry and miss my Maggie May more. Also, the difference between taking Mandy to the Vet and my Maggie to the Vet was heartbreaking. While Maggie May was always such a good girl, Mandy was so bad. How so? When I would show Maggie May her leash and collar, she would start to laugh and smile and have that joyous happy-face smile that lit up the room. I would then sit down and Maggie would uppy into my lap as I easily put her collar around her neck (like she wanted me to put it on). She then barked with a smiling happy-face so enthusiastically knowing she would be going somewhere. Then, when she would arrive at the Vet, I would put her down on the sidewalk and she would walk on the leash with her tail wagging and with that happy-go-lucky joyous happy-faced expression. She was so beautiful. She loved going to the Vet and was so happy to be there. The people at the Vet adored her, too, as she made friends wherever she went. Maggie May was such a good girl. I was so very proud of her and loved her so much for it. She was such a treasure and a pleasure. Unfortunately, Mandy's behavior was the entire opposite of what my Maggie May would do regarding going out and Vet visits. This past week, Mandy had an appointment for her rabies shot. When it came time for her to go, I went and got her leash and collar (I had bought her entirely new toys, blankets, bowls, leashes, collars etc. as all of my Maggie May's things I put away in storage as they would be forever my Maggie's. They are completely out of sight as I can't look at Maggie's things without crying). Anyway, I tried to put the collar around Mandy's neck and she consistently fought me all the way by refusing to stay still and made it so difficult and unpleasant. Then, I got to the parking lot, I put Mandy down to walk on the sidewalk. She had this absolutely defiant look on her face, pulling back and refused to walk. I litterally had to drag her by the leash into the Vets. She did not want to be there and was so defiant. The whole experience hurt very much and made me miss my Maggie so much more. These examples break my heart all over again and intensifies my grief. The only thing I can think of is that Mandy is just a puppy. She isn't an adult dog so she's still developing. Maybe as an adult she'll become a well-behaved good girl like my wonderful, precious Maggie May was. Maybe as an adult she would show more traits and characteristics that a typical Westie would show like my Maggie did. In the meantime, each of theses totally opposite Characteristics and behaviors makes me cry and miss Maggie even more. I don't regret getting Mandy. I was so lonely after Maggie May died and the house was so empty. I needed another dog to love and love me. So, eventually it may still work out. However, right now I'm really struggling. It is so hard. Can anyone else identify with this?
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Lana
I had a dog named Maggie May.  I lost her on November 10th of this year.  I still say good morning to her and talk to her where you used to sit.  Some have said she will find her way back to me, I believe that.  So should you.  Smile and talk to her, she will find you.
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