I'm so so sorry.
I can see Noah was your baby. I understand that better than anyone. But you have to be strong. For him. He's safe, waiting for you.
But before that, you live your life to the fullest. You have fun, you enjoy, you love. Noah will be with you throughout. If you stop for a minute, and close your eyes, you'll feel Noah. That breeze? That little chill? That weird sensation? It's Noah telling you, I'm ok!
And hey, I'm no psychologist, but if you ever need it, send me a message. Sometimes it's easier to speak to people you don't know.