I am very sorry about the pain you are experiencing. This is a club no one wants to join, but I am glad that you have found us. We cannot make the pain go away, but we are always here to "listen" to you, day or night. I found that very helpful when my Brandon died in March. The shock and grief seem unbearable, and yet they must be borne. You will probably find yourself crying a lot. Just let yourself cry; it is part of the healing process. It is unfortunate that your family is making this ordeal even more difficult than it needs to be. You sound like the very best kind of pet owner. Just keeping a dog with serious health problems alive until the age of 17 is an accomplishment, Sybil would probably not have had such a long life with a less dedicated owner. And when the end was near you did the responsible thing for your beloved friend. When I realized that Brandon was dying I took him to the vet so that he could die peacefully in my arms. That is a gift we can give to our faithful companions. - Dachsiemom
Moira - remembering Brandon
"Better lo'ed ye canna be. Will ye no' come back again?"