Karen I’m so sorry, I know how painful this loss is. Here you will find many, many people that understand exactaly how terrible the pain can be. My girl was also large, 117lb’s at one point. Yes their live span is shorter, and yes I’d desperately hoped she would live to a longer age. She died shortly after she turned 10😔 It sounds like your baby had a heart attack, mine did and the symptoms were very similar. What you saw, ‘ the odd behavior ‘ that happens After the heart has stopped. The body is trying to oxygenate the international organs. It’s horrible to watch. But I want you to know he was not alive at that point, his heart had stopped, he felt nothing, even if you heard noises. The shock of this happening is hard enough to bare without those final moments haunting you.
My heart goes out to you and your husband and the grief that follows Can’t be denied, it’s real and it hurts like hell! He was a huge part of your life, a living, loving part of your family. I’ve had a hard time with “ what, who is the new “us” our family. He gave you a purpose, a reason to stay on schedule, wake up for walks, for hikes, for feedings. And the unconditional love is the gift they give back everyday, wonderful love. Please write as often as you want, you are not alone, take care of you,,,,,
Lynn, Tankie’s mom, forever