Jenny and Catie,
Thank you for your heartfelt words of encouragement. They are always much appreciated, as they remind me there are those who understand and "get it", even when I think those around me don't.
Yes, I am starting to feel better physically. Dr. told me my blood sugar was on the high side, so I'm trying to change my diet (which is a struggle) and see if I can't get that down and drop some weight. I'm down 40-45 lbs since I broke my ankle, and I'm not even halfway to where I need to be.
Yes, reading that document brought a lot of things to mind. Just reminded me of all the memories that made Stormy special. Especially what I typed out as her last will and testament...that's where I completely lost it...
Stormy’s Last Will and Testament
To Pumpkin, I leave my love of annoying Chip.
To Chip, I leave my position of feline matriarch of the household.
To Pumpkin, Chip, Sandstorm, Eclipse, and Blizzard – I leave Daddy’s lap, where I got many an ear scratch or backrub and spent many a moment napping with him on the couch.
To Pumpkin and Chip (and if Mommy and Daddy so choose, to Sandstorm, Eclipse, and Blizzard) I leave the warm spots on Mommy and Daddy’s bed when they’re sleeping so you can curl up with them at night or during naptimes.
To Pumpkin and Chip I leave my catnip mousies, fuzzy balls, water dish, and food bowl, and my love of chasing laser pointer beams.
To Pumpkin and Chip I leave Mommy and Daddy’s bathroom in the mornings for you to keep Daddy company while he gets ready for work. Don’t forget, after you wake Daddy up, follow him into the bathroom and sit in front of the shower patiently until he’s done. Then you can climb up to the countertop and watch to make sure he is presentable after he shaves and brushes his teeth, and then after he’s done and dressed, you can follow him around until he heads off to work. This routine is a very important one…commit it to memory. Otherwise, there is no telling WHAT Daddy may go to work looking like.
To Daddy, I leave you my fuzzy siblings to continue to give you love and affection the way I was able to, and for you to be able to pass on to them the love and affection you showed to me.
To Daddy, I leave you my permission for you to open your home to another pet in need of a forever family. I know that you will care for him/her just the way that you did me.
To Daddy – I leave you all of the memories of my life with you, not to cause you sorrow or pain, but to help you in those times of grief to have pleasant times to think back on and remember. I know that there will never be another pet who will completely fill the hole in your heart that my leaving creates, but I hope these memories will serve as a band-aid of sorts for you so that you may feel free to show and guilt-free about showing your love and affection to other pets who come your way. I know that you didn’t want to see this day come, and I will always love and appreciate you for fighting for me and defending me to try and prevent me going before it was my time.
Also to Daddy, I leave you my forever gratitude for you choosing to let me adopt you even though I may not have fit the category of cat you were looking for initially, for you showing unconditional love and acceptance to me over these many years, and the knowledge that we will see each other again at the Rainbow Bridge.
Born: August 2003
Adopted: August 2007
Went to Rainbow Bridge: May 19, 2018
Ok, I'm crying just copying and pasting that now...
I'm glad Skye does a lot of the things Stormy used to do, too. I'm hoping she continues to want to snuggle up to me on the couch - other stuff like being picked up or curling up behind my knees or against my chest in bed at night may come later, but that's ok...she's still not even a year old yet, so she's really active at night...
I'd better get back to work, but I wanted to stop in and say thank you to both of you for your responses the other day. May the days be good to the two of you as well, in the midst of your own grief.