I've been missing my baby so much the past couple days. Dori has really cheered me up but I miss my little buddy. He was my best friend. I can't look at his picture without feeling like this is all my fault. I chose to change his vet, I chose his new vet, I chose to have his teeth cleaned, I was the one that didn't brush his teeth. I just can't stop blaming myself. If it weren't for my decisions, he'd still be here. He was just gone so quickly. One moment he was here, and the next, without warning, he was gone. He had so many years left to live. I think I am still in disbelief. I never believed this could happen to him. 
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Awwww, Cooper's Mommy:

You've said it all here "I never believed this would happen to him."  Of course you didn't! If you had ever imagined that such a thing might happen, you would have done anything within your power to have prevented it.  That alone tells me that you have nothing to feel guilty for, except that you tried your best to keep your dear boy safe and healthy.  It was out of your hands.  I'm sending  you squillions of virtual hugs to comfort you today.  It's so hard to take when guilt rears its ugly head.   

My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)

"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley




In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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I'm with Susie_Squillions, lots and lots of hugs going your way Cooper'sMommy. I understand you, this morning, after school, I imagined Potpot playing around outside, on the grass or sitting on top of the sand pile, and i couldn't help but feel guilty as well. If I had just picked her up and brought her with me like I always do when they drive me to school, she would have been safe. But then again, we really don't know if she would have been. I guess 'what ifs' are of no help, although we find ourselves thinking about 'em so much. I wish you peace CoopersMommy. We'll get through this eventually. hugs
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