Dear Stacey, Whether or not there is such a thing as a soul mate is a very personal thing, but I happen to believe that we are destined to make certain connections in our lives. Sometimes those connections are with people or animals with whom the bond is so strong that "soul mate" is the only way to describe it. I had such a bond with T.J. (my "Taz," as in "Akerr's Tazzmaniac, Jr.). It doesn't mean that I loved him more or loved him better than the others. It tells me that he and I had a soul-deep connection that went beyond anything I can put into words. Here it is, four months and one week without him by my side. The tears still well up when I write about him and I need to slow down and take a breath more often than when I write about anything else. He was as much a part of me as the air I breathe and the food I eat. He and I were one unit in two bodies. Will there ever be another Taz for you? Probably not, but there will be others to love. Again, this gets into personal territory, but I do believe that our animals are our guides in a way and that when they leave us physically they help us to make new connections with new best friends. Taz will have a paw in helping you find a love that will help you to heal. We just need to be open not only to the new love, but to a new kind of connection too. Maybe you will find a bond with a comedian to make you smile and bring you happiness. Maybe it will be a little physician or nurse who will monitor your healing and keep you comfortable and at peace with what you have experienced so far. Who knows? Taz does. He will guide you and the next lucky one together and you won't have much to say about it. But you will know when you receive this gift from him. And if I'm wrong and it's all a crap shoot, who cares as long as we feel better and find new friends and new bonds? That's what matters most.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery