My little 19 year old girl is being sent Home today at 1:00p, and I don't know how I am going to get through this. It would have been hard enough if the world was "normal", but now..., with this virus and being shut inside with nobody else in this house - it scares me, to be honest.
I lost her sister on 11/30/16, and I lost my BFF on 11/13/19, suddenly and unexpectedly, and my girl, Hobbes, was all I had left in this world. My entire family has passed away and I no longer work (retired). Hobbes was my entire life.
I picked her up off of the streets when she was just 6 months old, took her home, and the very first night I had her home, she jumped in bed with me..., and that is how it has been for the past 19 years. We have NEVER been apart overnight. The only time I have even left the house overnight is when we had to evacuate because of Hurricane Irma, and we went together. I actually went to an animal day care center because they allowed a few of us to sleep in their lobby - they were out of the flood zone and could withstand a Cat 5 hurricane. I had a large dog crate for her, loaded with very soft blankets, and that is where she slept - I slept next to her on a hard, cold terrazzo floor so she could see me. So, this will be the FIRST time in all these years that we won't be together at night, and I don't know how I am going to handle this. When I lost Maggie, I had my BFF and my girl, Hobbes. When I lost my BFF this past Nov, I had Hobbes..., now I am losing the one constant in my life - Hobbes. I wanted to post a photo of her, but it says the photo is too large or post a URL address.
I know she must go Home because she is in pain - I think it may be more than arthritis. She had a large pre-cancerous sore surgically removed from her back in Jan, and even though the biopsy on that came as negative for cancer, I never could understand where that sore came from. She lost a blob of hair and that sore appeared. There may have been cancer further inside her, I don't know. But, I love her way too much to allow her to suffer any longer regardless of the underlying problem. She isn't eating and just hovers over her water bowl. I have to give her medicine every morning and every night (been doing that since August when she had 6 teeth extracted). I know she hates that and is just tired - her little body is broken. I just don't know if I can get through this good-bye..., the toughest one yet.