This morning my heart is hurting and the tears are falling. It is so strange not to have Vesta here to share her Boxer wiggles. We had to make the agonizing decision yesterday to put our sweet girl, Vesta, to sleep.
First, let me tell you about this special girl. We adopted her from Southwest Florida Boxer Rescue two years ago. We saw her picture on their website and something in her eyes spoke to us. We knew we had to meet her. She was the typical goofy, fun Boxer with lots of kisses, hugs and wiggles. We signed the papers and brought her home that day to what she knew was her forever home. In our short 2 years with her, we had so much joy because of her. She made us laugh all the time. She gave us hugs just like a person and would rest her head on our shoulder when she gave us hugs. She wanted to hug us all the time, almost as if to say "thank you for saving me." She wanted to have constant body contact with us and she was so loving.
She had been diagnosed with lymphoma in March of this year and the doctors said there was a good chance of remission with chemo. We decided to give it a try and we knew it was going to be expensive but we couldn't put a cost on Vesta's life. She did very well until the last week of chemo when her lymph nodes started swelling again. My heart sank because I knew this wasn't a good sign and it probably meant our time was coming to an end with our sweet girl. Toward the end, her remissions only lasted a week and then she would have to have another treatment. This past week has been a roller coaster of emotions. She would have one good day and then two bad days. Over the weekend, she got to where she didn't want to eat and would just lay on the cold tile floor. Her breathing became noisy because her lymph nodes were so swollen. We laid on the floor with her and stroked her head and spent hours talking to her and comforting her. I told her about the rainbow bridge and that she wouldn't have anymore pain and she could run and play and be healthy again and that she should watch for us because we would be together again one day.
We knew that yesterday morning we had to make the dreaded phone call. We were so lucky that the wonderful people at Florida Veterinary Referral Center were brought into our lives. Dr. Andres and Laura came to our house to put Vesta to sleep. She passed peacefully with everyone who loved her and who she loved around her.
I'm just so angry that we didn't have more time with Vesta. It just doesn't seem fair.