Pebbles_Dad
Pebbles was born Valentine's day 2001 and was a gift to me and my wife from my Mom. At the time I wasn't sure how well it would work out since my wife had never had pets growing up and was very particular about how well-kept our home was. Well, 17 years later, we are facing coping with unbelievable questioning and inconsolable grief--we have decided we must let our little Shih Tzu go.

A childless couple and me in the military, Pebbles was my wife's only companion for months on end. When I was home, she was the common denominator of almost every conversation. We have hundreds of precious and loving memories of our little puppy and the love and happiness she brought us. It is almost too unbearable that we have to say goodbye. I spent over 23 years in the military, saw terrible and horrific things, experience trials and tribulations...and yet tonight will be the one of the hardest nights of life. 

They say your pet will tell you when it is time and I think Pebbles' time is now. However, I keep thinking that as bad as today was, what if she were to improve tomorrow? Is it too soon? I've made life and death decisions but the choice was always easy--it was for life. How can now choose the other for a loving puppy that has given my nothing but happiness and unconditional love?

Shawn
Completely broken-hearted 
Shawn
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Olgita256
I’m so sorry for your loss. I said goodbye to my Pomeranian Buddy on October 21 2017. He was 15 1/2. Struggled with cushings for a year and 6 months. I too have no children, I think that makes it harder because we practically raised them like children. All that love we have in our hearts was given to them. It’s been six months and I’ve come a long way. Had to seek counseling. I had to make the decision too... it’s never easy and we will find something to question. Just want you to know that the grieving process takes a while. Everyone is different and we grieve differently. I think we should be grateful that we had so many years with them. I’ve read posts where people have lost their furbabies at a vet young age. But of course we always want more years..I wish I had 17 and you probably wish you had 20 😍. Was it just the age for Pebbles or was she I’ll? If you don’t mind me asking. Blessings to you and your wife. Pebbles is not far from you... love never dies.
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PJRN007
Shawn,

I'm glad you guys found this forum because it's helping me cope and hope it will for you too.  My 17 year old cat named Ash died this past Friday afternoon while have a simple procedure under sedation.  He was resuscitated but the neurological damage was done.  The first time I saw him he was completely unresponsive.  About an hour later he had his eyes open, blinking, but his extremities were rigid.  I struggled with the decision to have him euthanized and finally did minutes later.  Now I wonder if I was too quick because he had improved some.  He was getting ready for radiation treatment to shrink a nasal tumor to provide some breathing relief.  Eventually the tumor would've killed him but I wasn't expecting this.  I feel like he wasn't monitored closely during his sedation until they realized he had arrested.  I'll never know.  I'm full of guilt.  If I hadn't taken him there he'd be with me tonight on the sofa or in the bed.  Euthanasia would come eventually but he was still full of life.  My point is, spend as much time with your companion as possible.  You'll know when the time is right to help Pebbles crossover.  Ash was my second friend to pass and it doesn't get any easier.  I've seen a lot of human suffering in my work but nothing prepared me for the pain of losing a pet.  Know you're not alone and I'll pray for you guys.  God bless
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CK1991
Dear Pebbles Dad, I'm so sorry for what you are going through and the hard decision had to face. In some ways, if Pebbles is suffering it might be your greatest gift to her to allow her to go before she suffers too much. You have my deepest sympathy. I hope you will post again about how things went and how you are doing now. Hugs to you and your wife,
CK
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Pebbles_Dad
Pebbles has always been happy and healthy until a couple of years ago. She stopped eating and her vet had no idea why and thought it may be time. At our urging, he referred her to a specialist and she determine Pebbles was is in kidney failure. She was in ICU for 4 days but got better with 24-hour care and on an IV. Since then, she's been OK with just the normal symptoms of getting older and arthritis. 

Hard wood floors make it really hard for her to keep her footing and since our home is all hard wood floors except the basement, I've been sleeping with her on the floor in the basement for the last 6 months. A few days ago I found her in the laundry room unable to stand--that is when I thought it was the end.

The day after I posted, I took her to her vet and had them do X-rays, blood work, everything just to make sure. Other than the arthritis, she is perfectly fine. She will be on pain killers from now on but we will get to keep her for a while longer.

She isn't jumping around and playing but seems to be content. She makes it to her water bowl, goes for short strolls around the basement, comes to me for attention, goes to her pads in the laundry room to potty and really enjoys eating. Though she's never been a picky eater (T-bone, porterhouse, filet, New York strip--she'll any steak I cook for her), it is nice to see her enjoy eating and chewing the bone.

We're very relieved she's going to stay with us but know that time is short. We're going to take this opportunity to make it count. 

Thanks for all of the kind well wishes. Sharing what we're going through really helps.  
Shawn
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PJRN007
That's good news!  Please stay in touch.  We're here for you.  God bless
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Olgita256
Awesome!!! My heart rejoiced reading that you get to have her more time!!!! So happy for you!!!!!!😍
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