I read with great interest your latest reply. I know exactly what you mean about not having anyone to depend on if an emergency occurred. I think that can be said for the vast majority of us. Even people who have a devoted significant other, kids at home (or Grandchildren), close friends, wonderful neighbors, etc. there is no guarantee that anyone will lift a finger to help. You were correct in saying that people just freeze when confronted with someone else's bereavement. It's such a complex emotion with no ordered rationale. We cry, we become depressed, our sadness is etched on our faces and we seem to withdraw from the expected chores of daily life. It makes people uncomfortable in our presence.
You were so Blessed to have had vibrant health (you said that you could walk 25 miles without any difficulty) when you were with Misty. That is impressive. Then within the last 18-20 months you said that something changed, You felt a loss of energy. Something was off with your robust health. I sincerely hope that you can regain your once vibrant health.
Thanks for your soothing words about my visit to Shelby's site on Saturday. Yeah, it was very emotional. My one saving grace is that she is in such a beautiful place. My other (2) babies: Molly and Puma are nearby. I will be going there often.
Visiting Chocolate & Oreo when I got home was cathartic. They are wonderful Male Border Collies (Both age 7) who really lifted my spirits. Most of my friends say that I am coping about as well as possible. The truth of the matter is that my grief is still very intense. I struggle with day to day activities. I miss Shelby so much. I've said it before and I'll say it again: Shelby stole my heart back in 2002 and never relinquished it.