Oh my. That is a huge amount of loss in a very short period of time. I am so very sorry, Anna. What you are describing is just a whole world of pain.
Twenty-six years is a staggering amount of time. It will be very hard to adjust to your sweet, baby bird not being with you. All the while, as you are trying to weather these other losses. My heart goes out to you very much. I hope you can take things in just bits at a time. And be super gentle with yourself as you have so much raw grief. Do you have any supportive people near you locally? I dearly hope there are some. But you mentioned that many don't understand. If there is a pet-loss group you could get to, it might be meaningful to meet others who have suffered losses. I do hope writing here will be a help, as everyone understands how deeply the pain flows when losing beloved pets. I wish I had a balm that could lift your pain. But we here can listen. I wish for you a multitude of comforts in this difficult time. Hugs to you.
-Missing Marissa deeply