Thanks @JBB. You are right... those final moments haunt me too. I’m sorry for your loss as well. Pets are so special.
I adopted Pebbles when she was just under 10 years old. She had been a stray and was a skinny little thing but so loving. We could have whole conversations, she squeaking back at me with her stories. At night, all I had to say was “bedtime Mew” and she’d come sauntering and squeaking away. What a little character she had. I live alone and she really filled up the space. Now the void is immense.