I feel your pain. I don't know where my little Chia's started, but I lost her on Friday the 8th. I guess what surprised me the most is how fast she went downhill. Just a week ago, she was acting normal. Her cough had gone away with antibiotics and she was eating again. I was going to take her in to have her teeth cleaned in July. Thanks to your post, I am glad to know what to look for when I start again with a new furbaby. I am so sorry for your loss, because I feel it so intensely now. They say time will make it better, but I think when I pick up her ashes it will start all over again. I have just now begun to stop crying all the time during the day, and I cry when I got to bed at night, since her little bed was right beside ours. You are not alone.
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. --Edna St.Vincent Millay