Today is one calendar month since I had to make that gut-wrenching decision to say goodbye to my GSD star, Solomon (Solly). Tomorrow, it is 14 weeks since I made the same decision for my beloved fluff ball cat, Gonzo (Mr Mischief).
At times, the pain still cuts down to the soles of my feet with the deftness of a surgeon's blade. I still feel raw, inexorably alone, bereft, dying inside. My heart bleeds for the loss of two pets who brought such immeasurable joy to my life. My mischievous, gorgeous Gonzo, who came to me as a five-month-old stray and grew into the most adorable bundle of fluff. My precious, handsome big man, Solly, who I bought as a 13-week-old pup, and grew into an eight stone protector, confidante, companion and loyal, trusty friend. Both animals had their own character, charm, and personality. Both animals were individual and I miss each of them in different ways.
I have lit two candles for Solly today to signify one month since he passed: one under the rose bush in the garden, the other in the kitchen where he used to lay on his bed. I have cried endless tears, not just today, but every day, for both of them.
In amongst the tears, I remember the good times we shared together. Naturally, as Solly was my canine friend, I spent more time with him on long treks through the countryside. Those walks I remember with such affection, and tinges of sadness. How he loved to roam. With Gonzo, it is the moments he would sit on my lap or snuggle under the duvet with me every morning that bring small smiles mixed with heartache. What I wouldn't give for just one more day with them both.
I love you both with all my heart, and one day we will be reunited never to be apart again. You gave me love and such joy. For that, I feel blessed and privileged. Bless you both, my beautiful friends. You will never be forgotten.
All my love, cuddles, and kisses, your heartbroken mummy, Wendy xxxxxx
“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” – Jack LemmonSolly, Gonzo, Daisy-Mae, Ebony, Jerry, Tigger, Bonnie, Suzy, Cleo, Spike, Sooty, and Tibby – dazzling lights that will never fade. Adored, cherished, I was privileged to know you all. Until we meet again, my beautiful babies. Bowls of love and cuddles, your ever-loving, devoted Mummy xxxxxxxxxx