Dear Macky’s Mum,
I lost My miniature pincher Zeppelin, two months ago, to kidney failure. Everything You described You are going through I went through & still am going through but some things not as bad. The crying spells each day have lessened. I’m retired & single so most days I could care less to even get out of bed. Zeppelin at least got Me up in the mornings & got Me moving through out the day into the evenings. Now with Him gone life is just empty. My family members don’t quite understand after 2 months why I don’t feel like getting out & mingling with friends. I just don’t. Going up to the grocery store shopping is dreadful because it means I have to head home to an empty house without Him greeting Me there at the door being happy to see Me coming home. I know it takes for the grieving process because before Him I’ve had other dogs in My life. I just didn’t remember how painful it was back then, until now. So, just know, all of the feelings You are having are normal. Don’t feel there’s something wrong with You, because there isn’t. Some people are just more sensitive than others that’s all.
I look at My videos of Him at night before going to bed & at photos of Him & I have his favorite blankie on My bed. It makes Me cry My happy tears. I talk out loud to Him that it’s time to go to bed now as if He’s in the room with Me & hears Me like I always did when He was alive. It’s weird but it actually works for Me to then turn off the lights & go to sleep.
I think to Myself: I must be going crazy? But then a friend of mine said that dogs spirits/souls can linger here on earth for awhile after they pass away just to make sure that We are ok before they go off to heaven. They wait for a sign from Us to let them know it’s ok to leave to go up to heaven to join the other dogs up there to run free & play & wait for Us one day. So by doing this at night I’m hoping My little buddy knows it’s ok now to go up to heaven to go play & have fun & that I will see Him again one day.