Dear Danielle, I saw you were on line late last night, but I also noticed you hadn't posted anything yet, so I couldn't reply to you. I had an urge to send you a private message to see if you needed to connect with someone, but I thought I'd let you open up in your own time. I don't know why, but I had a really strong sense of wanting to let you know I was here for you. I think it's a "Momcat" thing. ;-) I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. Bless you for loving Nelson so well, and for caring for him with such immense love throughout his renal failure. As painful as it is, you did the right thing by setting him free from the body that was betraying his beautiful spirit. I know that, like me (and all of us here), you wouldn't have been able to live with yourself if you had allowed him to suffer on your account. We do the best we can for them while they're with us, and it hurts so much to let them go on ahead without us by their sides physically. I have always believed that they are all around us. I'm of the school that believes heaven is not above us, but tht it wxists in harmony with our world, in another dimension, so to speak. I know in my heart that we continue to coexist. It's just harder for us, with our physical limitations, to see through the veil that separates our world from theirs. I have reasons for believing this, and I think I'll post a story about something that happened to me that proved to me that we are still one with the ones we love who have gone ahead of us. One day, when the time is right, Nelson will send you a new friend to love. To be perfectly honest, you won't have a lot to say about the matter. Nelson will take care of all the arrangements, and make sur eyou meet your new friend at precisely the right time. He knows you have a lot of love to give, and he will make sure that someone who needs it comes to you to help heal the wounds of loneliness you feel now. It's too soon right now, but one day, having a new friend to pass the days with will be a huge relief for you. Think about it this way: When a good friend moves out of state or to another city, we miss them terribly. Our routines are interrupted and we feel lonely without the ones we always did certain things with. Eventually, we make new friends and find someone to go shopping with, to the movies, out to lunch, etc. But we continue to love the friend who moved away, and we welcome every opportunity that comes along to talk to them, to visit with them, etc. It's the same with our Bridge Kids. They have only left us physically, and only until it's our time to join them. Until then, we make new friends to pass the time with, always holding our first friends close in our hearts, where they stay forever. One does not replace the other. As a matter of fact, I've learned that our hearts grown to make room for the new ones who enter our lives. You and your husband, and your beautiful Angel Nelson are in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm sending virtual hugs your way to help comfort you.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery