Thank you so much for the kind words. I am spending the day with him, mostly watching him sleep, hoping he is not in pain and at peace. Later my husband will take him to the vet. I just cannot do it. I don't want to remember him dead, I want to remember him full of life, and I want him to remember me as happy and loving, not falling apart. I know the tears will stop eventually, but right now I am falling apart.