@tingleyspicetingleyspice - I am so sorry for your loss!
I am in a similar position. I lost my beloved Fluffy unexpectedly yesterday at around 3:00 pm. We found her very ill and in an comprehensible amount of pain and rushed her to the vet who through testing and x rays found she had liver cancer *completely unknown to us until then* (she was having a hard time breathing at the time too). They decided to put her on some oxygen but it did not work.
Within 30 minutes we made the heart wrenching decision to put her to 'sleep'. From the time we found her ill until the time we put her to sleep was a time span of about 3 hours.
We are in absolute disbelief and heartache. She was our family member for 13 years and my goodness she was one of the most compassionate, loving and affectionate souls I have ever met. I have prayed over her that she finds companionship, is shrouded in love, is kept safe in warm healing light and that we will meet someday. I miss her so much that it hurts my heart!
I have never felt a loss this great in my life before and I have lost dear family members but this is grief and loss on a completely new level. She was my dearest friends and companions, she was my family and she grew up with me. She was there when no one else was there, she comforted me, loved me and kept me company through the most horrible times in my life and was there throught the absolute best parts. I will miss her forever more!
My heart goes out to You,Bubba and your family and I am praying for you all! For healed hearts and comforted souls.
Lots and lots of love!