I never thought I'd have to do this, at least not for a very long time.
I can't believe what has happened now. We had four cats for years, then we lost my sweet Precious of 17 years a little over 4 months ago, something I'm still dealing with every day, and then on September 26, we lost our dear Milo, only 8 years old. We are all so heartbroken. I was still aching from Precious, and now this has happened. Milo had lung issues, but we always made sure he was monitored very closely, and he had been doing wonderfully on his medicine. Not having many asthma spells at all, only once in awhile, and always making sure to wake me up every morning around 5:30. I miss that so much. He was so excited to wake up for the day & for us to spend our time together.
He was an angel after losing Precious, Milo was always next to me, whether I was working, just relaxing, or even when I was sleeping. It hurts so much to write this. I've never been hit with something like this. I don't even know where to begin. I haven't been able to post anything until now because I don't want to believe it. Since the first day I saw Milo at the vet, he was there available for adoption from a shelter..he reached his paw through the cage to touch my face...then they let me hold him & he wrapped his little arms around my neck like a hug. That was love at first sight. I miss him so much :(
The two kitties left, Dusty & Sassie...Dusty is the standoffish type, she always chose to be alone and away from the other cats, she enjoyed sleeping alone in the bedroom away from everyone. She has been looking around, but she seems to be okay. However, Sassie and Milo were loves. They were always cuddled together and grooming each other. They'd sleep together at night. Sassie is only 4, and she's been showing many signs of grieving. I spend as much time as I can with her, but she's searching for Milo every night. She was already searching and "meowing" for Precious, and now Milo is gone too. That is a terribly heartbreaking thing to see.
I have been feeling very angry lately, I keep feeling like this isn't fair, but I know life isn't meant to be fair or easy on you. I just don't know how to handle both losses in such a short time. To me these kitties are like family members, and I know most of you feel the same way. Have any of you felt so angry about a loss? I've read this is part of grieving, but I don't like feeling so mad. I am usually pretty laid back. It's a lot of hurt and heartache mixed with anger.
I miss you & love you dearly, my sweet Milo. My heart hurts.