Happy Birthday my Sweet Maggee Muffin! Today is your 11th birthday - and your sister has had not only her special birthday treat but an extra one for you. You are missed even more today and it is a good thing I did not make any promises to not cry because there have been already many tears this morning. . . I will though tell you over and over how grateful and lucky we are to have had you with us - Thank you Maggs for finding us - you and Kass. You gave us much and especially for me you were my 'special "special needs" girl who took greater care of me than I could ever have of you. You showed me many things throughout those ten years - gentleness; kindness; a loyalty of extreme depth; calmness; dignity; acceptance and overall a joy for life. While I am struggling to find that joy in life without you -believe me I had it when you were here with me each and every day. You came to be such a strong and brave little girl - battling through the ups and downs of your Addison's disease; your resignation at having your meds 'pushed' down your throat each day; being left behind at home or in the kennel [looking at me with those big brown eyes but willing to go because you trusted me - 'if mummy says its ok, Kass, its ok' was always what I thought I saw in your face]. You never cried Maggee, never whimpered, never ever complained - I probably have no idea if you were in pain, in discomfort and to what degree - but you always came for your treat and a 'bum scratch'. You found a way to comfort me and yourself by laying close while watching tv or in bed - keeping those 'hips' and 'kidneys' warm always - Maggs the little furnace! My heart is broken without you - but that is ok - and you know how it is - you always knew - because we are that rare connection - you are my heart-dog. I know you found me somehow because you knew I needed you, I just wasn't ready to have to say goodbye. I know I haven't come to forgive myself as I know you would have forgiven me for anything and everything - The one thing you and your sister always were to each other - unselfish - is a tough one for me to internalize. You and Kass never fought over food, attention or affection - never, ever was there one moment in those 10 years that you two had a quarrel, not a moment of surliness, nothing. You ate from the same dish, drank from the same bowl and always waited for 'Maggee's turn' . . . Two peas in a pod, two loving and devoted sisters. What a sweetheart you are to Kass, always her 'big sister'. I miss you so much, each moment of everyday, how I wish you have peace, contentment, relief and how I wish so selfishly you would be here forever. . . You have given me so much [And its Your Birthday!] I hate asking for more . . .I would love to hear from You - clearly and loudly - I am pretty sure you are with me each day but in this instance Maggee - more is better! You are so loved and so cherished. Happy Birthday Maggee - "The Big Easy" I love you.