I picked up my Tootie's remains yesterday. I know what you're going through. I'm so sorry for your loss and the pain you are feeling. I know it's so hard to deal with. I felt the same as you. It haunted me to think of my girl being cremated, but it was the only way I could have her home with me. My girl had a rectal prolapse. It was not repairable. I asked the vet if she could make her whole again after she passed away. I can only hope that the vet did that for me. I stayed with my girl until she was gone. I held her sweet body afterward and balled like a baby. Just know that you are not alone in your pain. We are all hurting so bad, but we are also here to help you in your time of pain. I have "met" some wonderful, sweet, and caring people here. They have all helped me a great deal. I wish I could say more to make you hurt less. I'm so sorry that you are hurting so much. Bless you.
Tootie ~ Sep. 1, 2000 - Sep. 4, 2010
Shine on you beautiful diamond!
Blueboy ~ Feb. 14, 1989 - Dec. 31, 1993
Always in my heart!