It’s been 16 days since our beloved dog of 13 1/2 years passed. Finally, my husband broke down. He has a cried a little here and there, but he doesn’t like to talk about Max because it gets him too upset. So I’ve turned to this forum to share my trauma, grief, depression, guilt and to process this monumental loss. I’ve felt I have to bottle in my pain and grief over our loss of Max. This forum lets me say whatever I’m feeling or thinking, I couldn’t be more grateful. No one understands me like the people here do. Having to cope with a loss is difficult enough, not having your partner to go through the grieving process is so much more lonely. I was sketching a picture of Max today, I don’t really know how to draw, but my therapist suggested it to help me process the emotions. When he walked in and saw it, he broke down. Just looking at Maxs face reminded him of the day at the vet when we put him down. He finally started to cry. When I wanted to talk about my feelings, he got up to leave. I wish I could be more supportive to people on here and be there for them, I don’t mean to make everything about me and Max. It’s hard enough just getting on here to write my feelings. At some point I will be the support that others need. I love you Max. I kissed your blanket that I sleep with this morning when I awoke like I woke up to you.