Dianna, I am so sorry for your loss, I also lost my baby on Saturday, my little Minx, I understand what you are going through, I feel just broken, all I seem to do is cry, I cant look at any of her pictures and today I found one of her toys under the bed with her teeth marks in it, the pain is awful. this site has been a life saver for me, so many wonderful understanding people, she was not "just a dog" to me she was my everything, I know time will heal and this gut wrenching pain will ease but not today, there is no timeline no rules that say well it's been this long so this is how I have to feel, it helped me to write a letter to her telling her how I was feeling and how much I loved her and miss her.
I thank God I have her sister Mini, she is helping me so much with her unconditional love and companionship, I wish I could find the words to help you more, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget
falls drop by drop upon the heart until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God