Welcome to the forum, but I'm so, so sorry for the loss that brings you here. What an absolutely gorgeous girl! And how tragic to lose her unexpectedly and so young. I know the emotional pain is just outrageous. My heart goes out to you very, very much and I hope you will find comfort in knowing pretty much everyone in this group has felt totally devastated and bereft, because our pets mean soooo much to us. I think this is one of the hardest things on the planet to live through and heal from. Not seeing Chloe where you expect her to be is terribly painful and unfortunately will be for a long time. I wish I could undo what happened. Like you, my heart screamed, "I want her back, I want her back!" It is just awfully hard. As much as it hurts, tears are your friend and so is expressing grief with words. I hope you'll keep writing and I hope being here and connecting with others who understand will be a comfort. It takes time for the pain to not be so sharp and consuming. Take care of you.
-Missing Marissa deeply