I am so sorry you lost your baby Looper. I know how devastating it is. It's been four months and 1 week since my baby boy, Cody, went to the rainbow bridge. He was a bichon also and we shared a special bond that I never experienced with any of my other pets. Bichons are so sweet, even tempered and loving. All they need to be happy is to be with their people. He was my little white shadow following me everywhere. He used to lay on my shoulder and I would pet his soft fur. It was such a calming feeling. He was always there for me through thick and thin. I miss him so very much and although my life will go on it will never be the same. Just remember that we gave our babies a good home and love. That's all anyone can hope for in this life. There are so many animals out there that never get to experience that for this world can be a cruel place. Keep posting here and it will help. It is a slow process, one I am still going through, but I hope someday I can remember my boy with a smile on my face for what I had rather than tears for what I lost.
"Grief only exists where love lived first."--Franchesca Cox