your lily will be watching over you now from above. This is what i like to think anyway. Our pets are angels on earth when they are here with us, so i like to think that they remain angels after they leave us. I am so sorry for your loss and i understand how you are feeling. I lost my beautiful little bed bug - my soul mate - my inspiration in life my Pykie just over two months ago and it still feels like it was just yesterday. He too would always be there for me when no one else would, no matter how i looked, what i had done, who left me or what terrible situation i found myself in...my Pykie would always be there for me and comfort me licking my tears away and cuddling me. I used to say to him everyday for some years "whatever will i do one day when you are gone my beautiful boy?" I knew as soon as i saw him at 4 weeks old that i loved him, but it was when he got older that i knew i would never be the same after he left me for the Rainbow Bridge one day. That day has come and i will never be the same without him here to guide me and make me feel that no matter how many people come and go...i will always have the love of my boy who would do anything to be with me...proven time and time again. It is such a hard road just as i had imagined...harder i think. But i am glad that i am now suffering in his place! I am glad that he is no longer in pain, i feel as though i now carry his pain for him. This is what i had wished for...that i could take his pain from him and endure it myself as this would have been better in my mind. I would never want for him to live the rest of his life feeling what i feel from losing him...so i guess i am glad that i lost him rather than vice versa. I hope that finding so many people here that understand and care helps you.
Pykie - My one and only you.
Forever and always yours. 05.02.06 - 05.04.17