I am new to this site, having discovered it a few days ago when I was looking for some support, knowing that we were going to put our Bodie to sleep.
He had very bad hip issues, and then an X-ray found a cancerous lump on his front leg.
We made the extremely difficult decision to have him put alseep, and this took place in our front yard, while he laid on his bed and blanket. We were together with him under a big tree, as a nice breeze blew across the grass, as he lay in the shade.
This was the most difficult decision that I have ever had to make. I really wanted to think with my heart, and never let him go.
My wife Brandi, and I got him at a shelter just 18 months ago, and when I first saw him, he walked over to me and put his nose under my arm, and I was sold...as if he chose me. This memory really makes me happy and upset at the same time. :(
I write all this during my first morning without Bodie, and I am so sad and depressed. I know he crossed that rainbow bridge and is running with no hip or leg issues, but I cannot stop looking at his picture or watching videos, and act like he is still with me. I am waiting for him to walk down the hallway, stick his head in my room, and then walk over as close to me as possible to pet him, like he did every morning.
The pain in my heart is quite extreme, and I know this should get better with time, but it's hard to understand when others say this, now that I am going through it myself, and it really really hurts.
I pray for all those who lost a pet as dear to them as our Bodie, aka Bodie Jones or Bobo. I miss him so much...this is much harder that I expected. I was at peace with our decision to let him go, instead of trying difficult meds to make him last longer, as this would have been for me, not him. They say that dogs live in the moment, not thinking about the future, and I believe that Brandi and I gave him the best possible life that anyone could have given a beautiful dog like our Bodie.
If anyone has any advice for me, please share it, as I am having a really rough time with all of this. I know it's going to be hard going into work, and most of the guys there won't understand, nor do I want to break down in front of anyone...how embarrassing would that be? I pray that Jesus gives me strength and happiness and let's me know that I will see Bodie again, and that he's running around, just waiting for his daddy and mommy. Thank you for reading. :)