I'm very, very sorry for your loss. My pooch was put to sleep 3 weeks ago and it was kind of a traumatic experience so I know the pain you're feeling now. It is an unbearable, almost "how can I go on" type of feeling. These are some things that I have been doing to cope. First, I didn't try to erase his presence right away. So I left his food and water bowl in position. And then I cried, cried, screamed at the top of my voice in my house and car, cried, yelled, cried, and screamed and cried some more, pretty much every day for about a week. But, as much as I missed him, I knew I couldn't drown in despair, so I kept crying but I put away his bowls. I sniffed and hugged his blanket. I forced myself to get out and do things to create a different routine than the oe tat revolved around him, and I continued to cry. I still cry, I still miss him, but I'm not in the depths of dispare as I was initially. Its going to take time. It's not an easy journey but the pain will ease up a little as time passes. Maybe you can volunteer somewhere where there's animals that need love. We have a place here that takes in old dogs that need volunteers to love on them. Some days you won't want to leave the house and that's OK but there will be days when you'll have to force yourself to do something. I KNOW it hurts. I know you miss your baby, but you will heal and one day you may be ready to fall in love with another fur baby. You'll never be able to replace the one you loss but you'll have room in your heart again to love another. May God comfort you and take you through this difficult time.
Thank you for your kind and comforting words - It is hard, I am finishing up my Masters Degree and I have to continue to go to school and finish my research - It's been a week from hell...but it is getting better (a little, but I will take any relief I can get) I really appreciate your words - This forum has helped me A LOT because of beautiful people like yourself. I am praying for you too and I am so sorry for your loss- May God Bless you my friend and thank you from the bottom of my broken heart