I feel so empty without her. I miss her so much!!!
Zoe was always beside me. She has always been there for me. Ready to cuddle, serve and protect. Her true love was human food and being with her family. Her true hate was being wet. She hated the rain and bath time.
She should have been a service dog. She was so smart!! If I asked for my slippers she would bring them to me. She would sleep in my bed beside me or on the couch.
She was a Golden Retriever/ Black lab cross. She looked like a black retriever.
She had a vet checkup a few months before and the vet said she was looking good. No concerns. I was comfortable with that. I knew she was getting old. She was slowing down. I declined blood work at that time. All her shots were up to date. She had dental surgery twice in the past to ensure her teeth were healthy.
I went to work on Tuesday evening (a week ago). Wow, its been a week since she first got sick. When I got home Tuesday Zoe was lethargic and wobbly. My adult son said Zoe had vomited a yellow bile few times. I don't know what caused her to get sick. I will never know. She was barely able to stand.
We made her a comfortable bed. I made some homemade pedialite (honey/salt water) for her drink and syringe fed her fluids. I was hoping the next day she would feel a bit better. I sat close to her all Wednesday. Tried to make sure she was comfortable. My son carried her outside to do her business.
I took her to the vet on Thursday which was an hour away. Her last car ride. I knew when I took her to the vet, I would be leaving the vets office alone.
The vet tried to palpate her stomach but her stomach was very hard. She took her temperature and was very high. Zoe was very sick. I could see that she was suffering. So, the vet and I discussed our options an I felt it was best to have her euthanized to end her suffering. She was at the end of her life span. Blood work may have given me answers but it would have just prolonged her suffering. I think it was cancer.
The vet gently gave her a shot. Zoe went to sleep. It was very peaceful. I stayed with her for awhile and told her how much I love her and how much she will be missed. I thanked the vet and the staff for their kindness and drove home. I cried all the way home.
I feel so numb and lonely for her. I do have other pets. Two cats and a little Maltese dog named Bella. I have been giving them lots of love and reassurance but it doesn't help the emptiness
I miss you Zoe girl!! You were such a loyal friend. I am giving your dog sister Bella lots of pets and love. We miss you. Enjoy Rainbow Bridge. Try not to be too sad. Until we meet again, my sweet,
sweet girl. RIP Zoe.