I am so very sorry to read about your Bella. We love them so much & miss them so much. The replay & wondering & guilt & deep pain can be unbearable. You did nothing wrong. In a second, you saw your girl and thought, Bella will figure it out. Likely happened other times & she figured it out. Not even a worry. But now, when you want her right there asleep at your feet with your other baby, your mind won't stop replaying those moments. Please know that your Bella loves you & is always with you. Unconditional love is real. Forever love is real.
It is very special that you asked for & got a sign-- a shooting star from your girl. Keep talking to her and ask for more signs. I wish I could tell you that all will be well. Cannot. These next days, weeks even months will be very hard. Please try & take it day to day...sometimes hour to hour. Your heart is aching so much you may feel like it could break. Try to think of happy moments with Bella...when she first came home or when she raced over & licked that dollop of frosting or ice cream that fell on the kitchen floor. Please try to be kind to yourself. But I truly understand the questioning. We all replay for different reasons. It can be wicked.
After losing my Lucy, I found Marianne Soucy's website, 'Healing Pet Loss'. I even ordered a Sacred Spirit Journey/message. Then I waited every day for it to come to my emailbox. When it came, I read it quickly. Then I read it again & again. I cried & released some of the pain. I could truly feel Lucy's love. It's saved on my desktop so I can always read it. Marianne's message (from Lucy) helped me because I needed 'something' to ease the pain. Finding the Rainbow Bridge forum helped so much. Everyone here truly understands how impossible it is to just get through the day. You wish you could wake up & think, 'Oh good. It was all a bad dream.' Then reality sets in & the replay starts again. You miss your girl every second of the day. Everyone grieves differently. For me, I think the gut wrenching, heartache started to ease after 3 months. Just take your time. And come here often.