Bev, Brandon, Kristie: I share your pain... feeling trapped in grief, and unreasonable guilt, and often unbearable pain. I lost my almost 10-year old boy Buddy on Saturday night, and I feel like I'll never get over it. I know that's not rational, because I've lost 2 other cats previously - and even though I felt the same grief, guilt and pain, I did eventually deal with their deaths. But it feels different this time, because Buddy should have had so many more years with us. My other cats each lived to be 19, and their decline was more gradual. These horrible feelings only seem to be lightened a bit by being able to talk to others who are going through the same thing, and all of us sharing our pain together.
Brandon, I especially want to thank you for your eloquent post here. It articulates so much of my thought process and struggle too. Hugs to all of you as we find our way through this, and cherish the memories of our wonderful babies and the special bonds we had with them. Cindy (Buddy's mama)
Cindy (Buddy’s mama)
My baby Buddy 5/4/10-3/7/20, rescued March 2011 My sweet Mandy 11/27/91-11/2/10, rescued November 1992 My beautiful Barney 4/28/73-9/7/92, adopted May 1973