I am completely heart broken. I had to put my Charlie down yesterday. Everything just lined up for him to go : (
A little over a month ago our landlord grandaughter decided to enforce the no pet policy. We had 30 days to move out. Financially, that was going to be really tough on us. We could have done it but it was going to be tough.
A week after I noticed a small lump on the inner part of his leg. We made an appointment with his vet the following week to see what it was. He stated that it was a tumor and that the location of the tumor was non-operable. And that if it grew any larger it would cause great pain and disrupt his vital organs. It may also be cancerous A week after that Charlie had two tumors that grew to Large tumors in the same area.
Before we saw the tumors my partner and I were feeling so depressed. We thought even if he was medically/physically ok Re-homing him was something we knew we couldn't do. We didn't feel it was right to pass on an impulsive/aggressive dog and he was so attached to us. See, our baby had issues with aggression and anxiety. He would lunge at other dogs and people. WE managed him by only walking him in safe places. Honestly, it was isolated areas parks at certain times of the day in our area. We truly lived for our dog.
Ladt week we could see he was in pain. We had a month of difficult soul searching and we decided that the tumors were not going to go away. Even, if we could or would move at that point. That it looked like the beginning of his suffering.
We were such a happy family until a month ago when it all hit.
Charlie was loyal, loving and playful. He had the cutest charcoal eyes on white fur. His facial expressions looked like he was smirking when he was happy. Very cute!
We decided to euthanize. It was all so overwhelming. I feel the guilt because I was supposed to protect and love him. I understand why I did it. But the guilt over putting down your best friend is overwhelming. When I think of him I get this anxiety. My hope is that he is in a good place and that he will forgive me.
Mommy loves you always, or as my daughter called you "Charlie Mac Fluffy pants" 💔